Day 1

Day 1 is probably the hardest day, right? No matter what you're doing, day 1 isn't easy. I've needed a reset and a recharge for a while now, but excuses have been too easy to come by.

No more.

Life is crazy right now. I've got written lists of what needs to be done and lists in my head. But in the midst of the crazy, I've decided that I need to focus on getting myself healthy again, both mentally and physically. The idea of sending Maxwell off to college has had me in a tail-spin for a while now. It's not easy for me to talk about or write about but it weighs heavy on my head and my heart each and every day. A big part of the reason I got a part time job was to have a distraction from the weight of what's to come. Watching my first born walk away from me sometimes seems like more than I can handle. As he walks away, I'll move Henry and Vivian to yet another house to plant roots for yet another home. Those two and the transition for them has made for many sleepless nights lately. I've felt weak under the weight of this move and of the need to keep Henry and Viv happy and engaged.

No more though.

I'm ready today, Day 1, to get stronger mentally and physically. I'm ready to take on the challenge of life changes and focus on the excitement of what's to come. I'm ready to stand tall in the face of all the Day 1's that are right around the corner. I need to know (again) what it feels like to be strong and capable of the unknown and of things that I fear. Today, I'm ready.

So, here's to Day 1.